2019-03-03 journal one

Bad dream last night… I was alone in the woods, I was lost, I was scared, I was naked… I felt that choking in my throat when I’m about to have a panic attack. I knew something was wrong but didn’t know what.  My chest got tighter, and I started to breathe heavier as there became an eerie glow.  I was panicking trying to find my way out, to find anything familiar.  The glow got brighter and I came upon this bug crystal cave.  There was something inside. I couldn’t make it out at first. The closer I got I saw it was Daddy.  He was alone and naked as well. He was scared and screaming and trying to get out.

I tried to find the entrance to the cave but I couldn’t.  I pounded on the side, he turned like he could hear me. I tried screaming to him, and he just kept shouting “help me princess…. Help me princess….”  I screamed louder that “I’m here,  hold on I’ll get to you”. I was clawing furiously at the side of the cave, daddy was opposite of me clawing to get to me and we could see each other and hear each other but couldn’t get to each other…. Eventually out of exhaustion, crying we both just sunk down to the ground not knowing what to do and I woke up…. Crying for real….


I hate hate hate bad dreams…. I’m not giving up, I never have and I never will….  131 days.. .


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